Looking Ahead with an eye On the Past

As the world goes on, there always seems to an end at some point, and we continue chasing that end, and when we reach that end point, we realized .. wholla .. still miles to go before we hang our boot off.

I guess, year passing is always had the same trick, where you look at the end of year to have point covered (that you promised at the start of year), and when you are finally in the month of Dec, you get the idea.. Half work done...

And am not lucky enough to escape from this virile trick of chasing down. The year 2008 has no doubt, it had its up n down.
The year 2009 had started with a promise of

> Getting loved, getting acknowledged by the surroundings
> To get rid of my "kya fark padta hai"(KFPH) attitute
> With an urge to forget /\ /\/\ /\/\ /\
> To get intense with life
> To open out more, to rant more
> To stay calm, attain peace of mind
> To have more substance of work
> To spend less, save more
> To get rid of all my borrowing
> To be more reactive
> Think positive and believe in yourself
> Make more friends
> Making 2009 a worth to look back
> m sure, there are more to add.. so i think i should stop here, else list goes on ..

And look, at the end of 2009, where i stand. If i take some point off from the list, and add quite a few, it stays the same for year 2010.

Well, apart from the list, 2009 had something to cheer. I gifted myself bike(Devil) on my birthday and had notebook(laptop) as Diwali gift.Our Master All Classics/100 All Time Favorite hit the deck in the start of Dec, mind you MAC/ATF is the first game where i worked as programmer from the conception phase to getting it candidate master. Well, i think i should have to be more polite and high on socializing rather than getting myself trapped in no man's land.

At the personal front, i think i need to find some one who can cheer me up when am down, to make me realize how much she loves me, to make me laugh with her naughtiest action, mischievous word, who hate me when i c some raunchy(porn) stuff or ogle at other girls, whom i am at ease to extent where i don care, ki my word/action will b judged, whom i can hug to the core where we feel one, who wishes me all the good thing, who searches my arm to relax her in spite of pillow, who think am having the biggest chest to swallow her while hugging to make her feel protected, who seeks me every time when she's happy or sad, whom i can offer my costliest shirt just to get her just nosey off or wipe her tears down, whom i can scream n say out loud... "You are the bestest thing ever happened to me .." :)))))))))

So, signing 2009 off with a bang and looking forward to 2010, as i hope, coming year will bring prosperity not to me, but to every one. No resolution, nothing as these are all just a false promises, and i sucks @ making one of them.

Happy New Year 2010

PS : A person with a genuine heart and yet a stoned one when it comes to love.
PPS : Love is when someone breaks your heart and the most amazing thing is that u still love them with every broken piece of your heart

Committed to me,myself,sAu


NIM December 31, 2009 at 2:36 AM  

your post was confusing, have a great 2010 is all I can say... happy new year

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