Your not wishing me, suggest where i stand.
Thanks, thanks a lot ..
This is what i was expecting. To be honest, i was bit hopeful, ki kahi, you will wish me. But, then also .. Thanks .. Thanks a lot.
Gifted myself bike, Devil is what i call it. :)
Soon, i'll write my b'day post, where i put my all the happening of last year.
This is first B'day, which i celebrated with my office mate, as am working on this night.
It was awesome, to be greeted like this. Never expected, but it was delightful, and full of elegance.
Thanks to all my office mate.
You guys rocks ...
11th July
Its been more than 3 month, that we talked last, more than 8 months we are out of relationship, but still i don know, why am not able to keep myself off from your thought. Its never been a single day, where i haven't thought of u, hoping not ki u'll change n all, and once again rain will start pouring in thirsty desert, i don know why..
Today, somehow i saw ur new pic in orkut DP, it made me restless, to an extent of 10 min or so, i got sinking feeling, made me feel as if am falling from top, and there seems to b no ending of it. I became normal only after justifying her action with my perspective, and this is the way am keeping myself going against her pervasiveness.
Why .. why .. i just want to get rid of all this, but am not able to, i know am confident enough, not to show all this physically, but i can feel the pain inside. And its taking a toll on my attitude, my way of thinking, behaving, n in the process of justifying, am letting myself down. I feel alone, low and out. How long one can think of someone, who is gone forever. I know, its crap to think about another crap, but its hard to come over to it. I still get perturbed when i think of ur action/behaviour that you showed knowingly/unknowingly.
My innerside still crave for you, my soul still thinks of you, i know you are happy in your world and having a blast out there, and i also pray to god, to keep you happy, content, blissful forever.
I miss you ...
I miss you a lot...
Paroxysm of Memory
After 367 days of tipsy,topsy,lurchy moments... and more than 6 months of out of our loving, caring n sharing relationship, all i wana say...
Tera mujh se hai pehle ka naata koi...
yu hi nahi dil lubhata koi...
jaane tuuu yaa jaane na
maane tuuu yaa maane naaa.......
love n hug
cheeeeeerss..... :( :( :( :(
Retrospection
It's really strange when you retrospect for your childhood crush, for whom we used to go to any level of nonsense, to grab a opportunity to meet him/her or to see him/her... How a short lived infatuation/fondness can lead to some goofiest situation/action, no one can even imagine. Being in love and being loved is two different things, but when you have crush on someone... Who the hell think of all this, there is only one hope, where you want to be noticed some time intentionally or sometime unintentionally...
The last night, lying on the bed, watching star over head, when I thought of this, then my impatient mind stalked two name, i.e preity and dhramshilla. So, let’s have a peek a boo with them.
Dhramshilla mam was our class teacher, when i was in class 6th. Her innocence face, simplicity, and sexiness made me feel for her. I know it’s kinda weird to think of her, but what to do, when you are at the blossoming age of your raw sexiness, nothing is wrong. The way she used to take name, it was way enough to make you numb for a while. She no doubt, were having best figure (lol) among all.
And preity, one of the most cherished crush... she was beautiful, innocent, cute and all the adjective that you can think of. Rahul, will definitely tell you, how mad I was for her, after all he was my informer, as she used to live in her locality. I still remember how I used to wait for 3.50 pm for a glimpse of her, as she used to cross my building for her tuition. I invested quite a few night, in thinking, how to have a word with her, I mean how to strike a conversation/friendship, whether to give some gift or some soft toys, how she will react... bla bla ... but unfortunately it didn't happened. I know, it was doltish to make an email id "sau_prit@hotmial.com" where sau stands for saurabh and prit stand for preity, but who care... I really adore the time of my bhartendu’s sir tuition, from where all this started. It was more of routine to see her in morning in her balcony, where she used to brush her teeth, and every time if she did something diff from other day, rahul was sure ki, she was giving some hint, and all I have to do is to take a foot forward.
But we never had eye to eye contact for more than 4 sec or so, why I don’t know, if I would have clue, surely she would have been mine.. Be +ve yaaar .. Then also, the whole morning incident was more of fun, and especially thinking about how to strike a chord with her was one of the craziest or wackiest thing, could happen to me...
Well, this was one of the tales that I shared here, it’s almost true ki somewhere at any point of time, everyone had a crush in his/her life, and to get back to those memories is almost digging a mine of golden memories. I know, both my crush got crashed before it could take off.. Then also, this is what we called life ... I am sure, both of them will be enjoying their life with all the ups and downs.
I urge every reader of this, to share their experience of crush, which definitely make you feel good. And if something can bring smile on you, then give it a shot na...
A thoughtful message to end this....
"Sometimes we struggle through tasteless coffee till the last sip and we find sugar lying at the end, THAT'S LIFE... always sweetened but sometimes not stirred"
committed to me,myself, sAu
Tag Tig Tog
How much i love you, you don know ..
How much i care you, you don know ...
Love is eternal, Love is bliss ..
Love is something, that makes you reeling n rocking ...
Name one person who made you laugh last night?
Did i laughed last night .... lol
What were you doing at 0800?
Taking bath, office jaana hota hai yaar ...
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Sipping mazaa with kitkat, it tastes great
What happened to you in 2006?
Was seaching job, infact in mid 2006, got selected in CDAC... and rest becomes history.
What was the last thing you said out loud?
jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahe mujhe koi jungali kaheinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn .......
yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
How many beverages did you have today?
aeeeeeee .. 2 cups of tea, one cup of capechino, and one mazaa .. bus ..
What was the last thing you paid for?
for mazaa and kitkat, tht i bought in office canteen
Where were you last night?
ghar pe...
What color is your front door?
wooden color
Where do you keep your change?
wallet
What’s the weather like today?
hot.. pata nahi delhi wali mausam yaha kaha se aa gayi ...
What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
butterscoth ...
my fav ..
What excites you?
smile, cuteness, smartness, and *&^&%% ...
ha ha ha he he he ho ho ho
Do you want to cut your hair?
i want to shave it off, but ...
Are you over the age of 25?
hhmm ...
and clock is ticking faster day by day. Frankly speaking, i don have any clue how fast i aged 25.
fuck man, am 25 .. holy shiiiit
Do you talk a lot?
naaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
Do you know anyone named Steven?
naaaaahhhhh
Do you make up your own words?
Your own words bole toh....
I beleive in myself..
Are you a jealous person?
Not exactly.. am jealous of more of success that other people enjoy, but in healthier manner
Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
...... alias Amma
Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Sorry .....
Who’s the first person on your received call list?
I don know, it was wrong number
Do you chew on your straw?
nooo
Do you have curly hair?
Straight
Where’s the next place you’re going to?
ghar.. sweet home ghar...
Who’s the rudest person in your life?
pata nahi, abhi toh koi nahi..
But, i have seen people changing... ...
What was the last thing you ate?
Chocolates!
What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
I haven't seen any movie in last 2 week, waise i tried watching "nights in rodathe", but failed. So will complete this week.
Is there anyone you like right now?
Yes, of course.... But, it's of no use.
cause i know, she didn't give any flying fuck over this.
When was the last time you did the dishes?
last sat, no maid, poor me...
Are you currently depressed?
Not exactly, but, am not happy with myself ..
whenever i think, i have everything, something start missing ...
Did you cry today?
Noooo ... last time i cried way back in dec 2003... usske baad toh jaise aasu sukh hi gayein ....
kitna bhi chahoo .. rona aataa hi nahii ... i tried few months before ... but failed ...
Why did you answer and post this?
Because this was interesting! and my blog was missing me .... :)))))
Who do you tag next?
Kisi ko nahi ...
cause no one follow this blog, except me ...
Committed to me , myself, sAu
How much i care you, you don know ...
Love is eternal, Love is bliss ..
Love is something, that makes you reeling n rocking ...
Name one person who made you laugh last night?
Did i laughed last night .... lol
What were you doing at 0800?
Taking bath, office jaana hota hai yaar ...
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Sipping mazaa with kitkat, it tastes great
What happened to you in 2006?
Was seaching job, infact in mid 2006, got selected in CDAC... and rest becomes history.
What was the last thing you said out loud?
jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahe mujhe koi jungali kaheinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn .......
yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
How many beverages did you have today?
aeeeeeee .. 2 cups of tea, one cup of capechino, and one mazaa .. bus ..
What was the last thing you paid for?
for mazaa and kitkat, tht i bought in office canteen
Where were you last night?
ghar pe...
What color is your front door?
wooden color
Where do you keep your change?
wallet
What’s the weather like today?
hot.. pata nahi delhi wali mausam yaha kaha se aa gayi ...
What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
butterscoth ...
my fav ..
What excites you?
smile, cuteness, smartness, and *&^&%% ...
ha ha ha he he he ho ho ho
Do you want to cut your hair?
i want to shave it off, but ...
Are you over the age of 25?
hhmm ...
and clock is ticking faster day by day. Frankly speaking, i don have any clue how fast i aged 25.
fuck man, am 25 .. holy shiiiit
Do you talk a lot?
naaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
Do you know anyone named Steven?
naaaaahhhhh
Do you make up your own words?
Your own words bole toh....
I beleive in myself..
Are you a jealous person?
Not exactly.. am jealous of more of success that other people enjoy, but in healthier manner
Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
...... alias Amma
Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Sorry .....
Who’s the first person on your received call list?
I don know, it was wrong number
Do you chew on your straw?
nooo
Do you have curly hair?
Straight
Where’s the next place you’re going to?
ghar.. sweet home ghar...
Who’s the rudest person in your life?
pata nahi, abhi toh koi nahi..
But, i have seen people changing... ...
What was the last thing you ate?
Chocolates!
What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
I haven't seen any movie in last 2 week, waise i tried watching "nights in rodathe", but failed. So will complete this week.
Is there anyone you like right now?
Yes, of course.... But, it's of no use.
cause i know, she didn't give any flying fuck over this.
When was the last time you did the dishes?
last sat, no maid, poor me...
Are you currently depressed?
Not exactly, but, am not happy with myself ..
whenever i think, i have everything, something start missing ...
Did you cry today?
Noooo ... last time i cried way back in dec 2003... usske baad toh jaise aasu sukh hi gayein ....
kitna bhi chahoo .. rona aataa hi nahii ... i tried few months before ... but failed ...
Why did you answer and post this?
Because this was interesting! and my blog was missing me .... :)))))
Who do you tag next?
Kisi ko nahi ...
cause no one follow this blog, except me ...
Committed to me , myself, sAu
Chillest Zone -- Home/Holi
Being at home is always going to be great. And after working for two tiring months day n night, and then getting such a break is always going to be a boon in the run of miles. Also, you get a chance to meet your loved ones, whom you desperately want to meet, as in my case is the DADI MAA, bi the way i cheer for all my family member.
Beleive me, after journey of 30 hrs of indian railways, you never regret the worthiness of it. Travelling in indian railways is fun in itself. It shows you, not full then also the half india. The 72 seat bogey carry some 250 indiviual in its peak season i.e diwali n holi. So, my journey was no more less bharat darshan, as i also saw some 15 adjusting in single compartment.
I have no idea, how this holi is going to be, as i am all alone this time, no frnds at all, all busy with their hustling and bustling carrer, out of hajipur. The whole one year has been a roller coaster ride for me, last holi and this holi ... ............... Then also, i have whole gang lined up of tiny cousins and bhabhis. Hannu, in particular is excited to play holi with his bintu uncle.
This holi, i was planning to have bhang, but unforunately, am at home, so this chucked out my plan of having bhang. I wana taste it, after all lemme check how it feels to eat n sings like "bhang ka rang" ...
Three days already gone, another 3 days to end this holi trip. you know, time is passing like a bullet train, it seems this world is at the verge of ending and god had fasten the day night cycle, the usual 24 hr has been shortend to some 12 hrs. Three day .... wow .. this time is moving hell ahead of his usual period.
Chalo then..
Have colurful holi...
play with whatever u get.. after all "bura naa manoo holi haii ..."
Committed to me, myself, sAu
Beleive me, after journey of 30 hrs of indian railways, you never regret the worthiness of it. Travelling in indian railways is fun in itself. It shows you, not full then also the half india. The 72 seat bogey carry some 250 indiviual in its peak season i.e diwali n holi. So, my journey was no more less bharat darshan, as i also saw some 15 adjusting in single compartment.
I have no idea, how this holi is going to be, as i am all alone this time, no frnds at all, all busy with their hustling and bustling carrer, out of hajipur. The whole one year has been a roller coaster ride for me, last holi and this holi ... ............... Then also, i have whole gang lined up of tiny cousins and bhabhis. Hannu, in particular is excited to play holi with his bintu uncle.
This holi, i was planning to have bhang, but unforunately, am at home, so this chucked out my plan of having bhang. I wana taste it, after all lemme check how it feels to eat n sings like "bhang ka rang" ...
Three days already gone, another 3 days to end this holi trip. you know, time is passing like a bullet train, it seems this world is at the verge of ending and god had fasten the day night cycle, the usual 24 hr has been shortend to some 12 hrs. Three day .... wow .. this time is moving hell ahead of his usual period.
Chalo then..
Have colurful holi...
play with whatever u get.. after all "bura naa manoo holi haii ..."
Committed to me, myself, sAu
