19

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn on page 18 and find line 4.
Oops Its blank, coz on next page 19 starts a new chapter.

2. Stretch your left arms out as far as you can & catch air?
aaahhhhh ... need some fresh air, as AC things didn't work out for me.

3. What is the last thing you watched on T. V.?
Just chill ... Dhan ta tan from kaminey

4. Without looking, guess what time it is?
11.40

5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
11.41

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
people discussing in their's cubicle ..

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
After entering office, havn't stepped outside till yet. Haa .. morning i stepped outside from home for office.

8. Before you started this Q&As, what did you look at?
was reading "ExtremeTech 3D pipeline"

9. What are you wearing?
a full sleves shirt with a pair of jeans.

10. When did you last laugh?
pata nahi .. sayad kal..

11. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
nothing as this is office, but haa .. my workstation is full of yellow "TO-Do" list, hey lots to do ..

12. Seen anything weird lately?
Yeah.. me copying this tag from somewhere else, and doing on its own. Nothing more weird can be ....
ho ho ho

13. What do you think of this quiz?
Timepass (Doing this esp for 19)

14. What is the last film you saw?
Hum Tum on TV, and in theaters .. Angels n Demons and that some 2 months ago .. :(

15. If you became a multimillionaire overnight, what would you buy?
Will invest strategically in some start up company, and will buy some nice/big top floor apartment and a Lexus RX Hybrid10

16. Tell me something about you that I dunno!
I am big time emotional fool. If i attached to someone/something, its hard to detach. I feel like giving lots n loads of love to dear/near ones in any form i can (esp verbally, physically, etc ), but unfortunately i always fail.

17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Illiteracy. If people are literate, they will be in proper condition to take care of themselves, which in turn will do good for their locality, city, country and add to the prosperity of themselves n their country.

18. Do you like to Dance?
Yeah.. i do .. but, to be honest, am a terrible dancer.

19. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Ayesha Anand

20. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
I don know, its up to my wife n family to decide. Given a choice, i will call him sid

21. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yeah.. of course.. in fact am dying to live abroad. I want to explore the world.

22. What do you want GOD to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
AA GAYA ... chal apna hi GHAR samajh .... :)))))) (n then crooked mind will start rolling ...

I love thee, I love but thee.... With a love that shall not die.... Till the sun grows cold, And the stars grow old.... (Anonymous)

Committed to me, myself, sAu.

Kaminey ...

Hindi Song: Kaminey
Singers: Vishal Bhardwaj
Lyricist: Gulzar
Music Director: Vishal Bhardwaj

Kya kare zindagi
isko hum jo miley
iski jaan kha gaye
raat din ke giley
raat din giley

meri aarzoo kameenee
mere khwab bhi kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi
kaminey

kabhi zindagi se maanga
pinjare mein chand la do
kabhi lalten de ke
kaha aasma pe taango
jeene ke sab kareene
the hamesha se kaminey

meri dastaan kameenee
mere raaste kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi kaminey

jiska bhi chehra chila
andar se aur nikla
masoom sa kabootar
naacha toh mor nikla
kabhi hum kaminey nikle
kabhi dosti kameenee
maere yaar bhi kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi kaminey

A must listen song for everyone, who believe in the "karma". I haven't seen the movie yet, as release is delayed in pune by 3 days because of Swine Flu, then also, the review it had generated till now is impressive and magnificent. It reflects the real meaning of being in the world, it deals the majestic touch of life, where everyone is "kaminey", which is terrifying and spooky, and at the same time very striking and overwhelming.

The sequence where shahid runs with the stallion, and that's shirtless... Great shot, (Don think, m a gay or like that :|, its brilliantly shot, and i wonder when i'll have those kinda chest and abs... :D) striking music and breathtaking running by shahid is the high point. Hats OFF to Vishal and Co...

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11 July 09 ..

Celebrating B'day is always going to be fun, so was mine.
Continuing the legacy, here comes the ups n down of 2008 - 2009.

So, Here comes the 25 pointer ...

1) Being in Ubisoft, is almost having a ride to a bumpy surface. The whole last year in ubisoft, was like a roller coaster ride. Got an appraisal, and that what we called "utt ke muh mein zeera", recession time .. you know na..

2) "Master All Classics", is releasing this Christmas. This is the game that we made. Title is ready for Nintendo submission, lets have finger crossed. First major title, where i worked as programmer, and that's from scratch. At last, something to cheer, as last one year was all gloomy and full of sloppy things .

3) Last three months, i had long working hours, better to say .. 10 am to 12 midnight, and even to 3 am. Now, as submission is about to hit, so bit relaxed n enjoying ... :)

4) Finally, gifted myself bike, a Pulsar 180CC... and that on my birthday, a long awaited list in my "To Buy" list. I know, am wiccan enough to take this long to buy, after planning from last 2 and 1/2 years. I tell you, it gets to 40-50 kmph in 5 sec, that's amazing na ...

5) Planning to have laptop by the end of this year, lets c whether it materializes or ???

6) Finally, Dhiraj bhai got married this may. Lemme tell you, he is enjoying every second of married life. When he got back to pune, after marriage, facial expression/mood was something to look out for, as if bulb has lost his filament, and it knows where it is, but cant dare to pick it up.

7) It was very regretful, not to witness dhiraj bhai wedding, as my leaves were canceled. I know, how pissed off, dhiraj bhai was/is, but Dhiraj Bhai, it was not in my hand, and am extremely sorry, ki i cant make it to your wedding.

8) Anshuman, my BFF joined in Delhi, so he also left pune. Now, this place sucks ...
God save me ..

9) Getting alone day by day. First Ayesha went, then anshuman went to delhi, and now dhiraj bhai going . "sabi chor ke chale gayein ... " I know, its for the good cause, then also .. it hurts when you start feeling, that you getting left out.

10) World is selfish, full of hypocrite people, they even themselves don't know, where they stand, but will stand tall on their self imposed greatness.

11) How can the person with whom u breathed every moment from morning to night suddenly turn stranger? How strange na, we were at "start" in 2007, "high" in 2008 and in 2009, she didn't even think of wishing me on my birthday. How lame one can be ..

12) Then also, I was GLAD to know you, gladed to left you behind. All i say, "Every Relationship comes with a expiry date."

13) I don beleive in love anymore, what we call ... "Once bitten, twice shy"

14) My eternal wish is to work outside india for 2 - 3 years atleast, where no one knows me, where i can start a fresh, where i can live in my solitude, where i can restore my confidence in love,myself, where i can have rendezous with myself.

15) I love "How I met your mother", a hilarious sitcom, a must watch.. especially Barney Stinson and his bro code... a great character who create awful situation and enjoy to watch or being at that situation. He has a key of all lock and always willing to poke his nose in whatever situation. A great example of friendship, i mean he always stand for his friend (Ted, Robinson, Lilly, Marshal), no matter how much trouble they r in.I am great fan of his "Awesomeness..."
" When i get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True Story. " Barney Stinsons

16) I am getting skinny ..looked sick.. may be it was coz of work schdule i have ..or the nail in heart ..

17) Still didn't donated blood ...

18) Was fulltu out in one of the ubisoft party, did everything what one is supposed to do after ... no more details.. o_0

19) Have to try drugs(G n all), atleast one shot... (i don know why ... )

20) Am a person who beleives more in letting things happen, rather than make them happen.

21) I miss you a lot, i know it sounds trite. Then also, every beginning has an end. Have still kept you alive in my thoughts.

22) I guess, i were more self determined, in all aspect of life.

23) I hate people, who didn't pick up phone, after continous ringing or even put me on hold. You have the brain to talk "badi badi" baatein, but didnt have guts in ur ass to pick up the phone and state the reason whatever it is.

24) My broking continues ... :(((((

25) Read some good books in last year, hope to continue trend for years to come.

I know, am bit late in posting, then also, digging 25 point is a big ask, and c, i completed at last. I need a pat.. don't i ... :)

committed to me, myself, sAu

11th July

Your not wishing me, suggest where i stand.

Thanks, thanks a lot ..
This is what i was expecting. To be honest, i was bit hopeful, ki kahi, you will wish me. But, then also .. Thanks .. Thanks a lot.

Gifted myself bike, Devil is what i call it. :)

Soon, i'll write my b'day post, where i put my all the happening of last year.

This is first B'day, which i celebrated with my office mate, as am working on this night.
It was awesome, to be greeted like this. Never expected, but it was delightful, and full of elegance.

Thanks to all my office mate.
You guys rocks ...

Its been more than 3 month, that we talked last, more than 8 months we are out of relationship, but still i don know, why am not able to keep myself off from your thought. Its never been a single day, where i haven't thought of u, hoping not ki u'll change n all, and once again rain will start pouring in thirsty desert, i don know why..

Today, somehow i saw ur new pic in orkut DP, it made me restless, to an extent of 10 min or so, i got sinking feeling, made me feel as if am falling from top, and there seems to b no ending of it. I became normal only after justifying her action with my perspective, and this is the way am keeping myself going against her pervasiveness.

Why .. why .. i just want to get rid of all this, but am not able to, i know am confident enough, not to show all this physically, but i can feel the pain inside. And its taking a toll on my attitude, my way of thinking, behaving, n in the process of justifying, am letting myself down. I feel alone, low and out. How long one can think of someone, who is gone forever. I know, its crap to think about another crap, but its hard to come over to it. I still get perturbed when i think of ur action/behaviour that you showed knowingly/unknowingly.

My innerside still crave for you, my soul still thinks of you, i know you are happy in your world and having a blast out there, and i also pray to god, to keep you happy, content, blissful forever.

I miss you ...
I miss you a lot...

:| :* :|



Does this convey something ??????????????

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Paroxysm of Memory











After 367 days of tipsy,topsy,lurchy moments... and more than 6 months of out of our loving, caring n sharing relationship, all i wana say...
Tera mujh se hai pehle ka naata koi...
yu hi nahi dil lubhata koi...
jaane tuuu yaa jaane na
maane tuuu yaa maane naaa.......
love n hug
cheeeeeerss..... :( :( :( :(