With every goodbye you learn!

Hey ... This poem.. i found somewhere while surfing randomly ...
I found it worth putting on blog ...
It's more about the lesson that you learn after every breakup, after every rejection....
and also who can else better understand this at this current moment rather than me .....
So, here it goes ....

With every goodbye you learn!

Love isn’t like a reservoir.
You’ll never drain it dry.
It’s much more like a natural spring.
The longer and the farther it flows,
The stronger and the deeper
And the clearer it becomes.

After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning
And company doesn’t mean security,

And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts
And presents aren’t promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open,
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child, a
and learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans,
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while you learn that even
sunshine burns if you get too much.

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure….
That you really do have worth.
And you learn and learn…
With every goodbye you learn.

Who breaks the thread; One who pulls it or one who holds on?

Different answer will be given for the above asked question, there is no doubt. Different person will have different opinion, under different circumstances, under different conditions. But what matter most here, is how you take the things into consideration, how you analyze the situation, how u justify ur action.

Everything in this world is based on infatuation, obsession to some extent, no one cares for emotion, if someone do, and then they are considered as doting and witless.

Someone science student can argue, ki every action has a reaction, every deeds has a consequence; so likewise, breaking the thread is more of a imbalance caused by two people @ both end. Some will come to conclusion, ki its nothing, but a breaking of equilibrium, caused by the person tugging at their end.

Someone will think, its a nonsense to hold someone, who wish to get out of your hand, out of your reach, out of your sight, so person holding should allow to say goodbye, tata ...
But still the question arises, who should be blamed for the action that leads to the breaking of thread.

I guess, it’s more of consequences of a action, that didn't determine its owner. Its always being a human tendency, of not considering himself, the accuse of any mishap, but the stampede tht is being caused by this is something, that no one can comprehend and even sympathies, except the person that sensed it most.

What i think thread can be considered as a adhesive, that bind a relationship, that connect a person to person, that gives you support n strength when u need them most. Its upto you, to decide what among urself and ur partner can be taken as thread, it can ranges from a small eye connect, a heartbeat, a hug, a small walk, any soothing experience...

Plethora of emotion... some justified .. some questioned ...

B'day are always meant for celebration, time to party with frnds, to drink without flunk ....

So, here it is, 11th July, this auspicious day i completed my 24 and beated the drum for 25th.

Completing my 24 and not writing blog for me, yeh kaise ho sakta haii ....
So here it is, continuing the tradition of telling about myself,that i started last year...

so, in this blog, am trying to point out 24 thing that i found in myself, changed, adapted, advanced, altered, expected to do, change required, resolution ....
Here, it goes


1) Ubisoft Ent Pvt Ltd, transition from gameloft to ubisoft, from mobile to console, a dream come true. Every mobile game programmer dreams to make it big, bigger on PC, and biggest on xbox,PS,WII.

2) Same salary, thts unfortunate, it should be bigger and better.

3) fifa maniac, something which am enjoying these days, last year tak, soccer.. thts boring,

4) my broking and borrowing stil continues. :(

5) no bike till now :(-_-_

6) learnt quite a bit abt love, hatred, betray, emotion, sentiment ...

7) i miss my family a lot.(i guess its not new, but am missing all this a lot these days).

8) i haven't been on date yet. :(-_-

9) But got the chance to live some wonderful, notable, phenomenal moments with some one special, that am gonna cherish for years 2 come. :)
(Hey.. if u reading, i really mean it, from the core of my heart.)

10) Lost some more hair, i guess next year i will b bald. :(-_-_

11) Planning to get iPhone this year. Don laugh, i know m big time liar, but kya karu ...... :) :)

12) yehhhhhhhhhhhhh... i read "The Alchemist", presently "The Kite Runner" is on.

13) traveling + trekking is something i wana do, seriously m gonna give it a try.

14) saw colors of friendship with my frnd, whom i used to call ma "lagootia" yaar.

15) Got a brand new watch, courtesy :: Dhiraj Bhai + Anshuman + Rajeev (mind you, its my B'day gift from them. Thanks a lot)

16) From a complete shy boy, i changed to someone, who prefer to speak his mind. But still need more effort in shedding my shyness.

17) With ayesha, i learnt the meaning of emotion, agaption, apprehension, explored love, enhanced my expressing thing, etc etc. (Hats off 2 u)

18) I really wana improve my speaking skill, and way of putting things, cause sometime it leads me down, and it something that hurt u most, when u know, u r right, but u wouldn't able to get justified. Also, it put me in some serious situation which shouldn''t be followed.

19) I have to outdo my sarcastic style of attitude in some situation, which sometimes break relation before getting it full proof cemented.

20) Getting fatter and motter day by day .... :(-_-

21) I need to socialise a bit more, bit of networking is needed to be more efficient and affective.

22) will donate blood this year, thats for sure.

23) I need to be more efficient, adequate, competent and economic in my work, cause there is no point in working hard, working smart should be the motto.

24) need to take more initiative, cause it something that pushes you further in your carrer.
cause 20 years from now it wont matter... what shoes you wore... what jeans you bought... or how your hair looked... what will matter is WHAT YOU LEARNT AND HOW YOU USED IT!!!

Atlast, i completed, frankly speaking it was herculean task to identify all these 24 point in yourself, and i did it. So i need a pat, of course i need .....

Dilema

Tell me one thing, why can't we get back to our earlier days, days where we have our school, our bicycle, our tution, our school frnds, our school books, our tension of completing homework.

I want to live my school days back, i want to get back to my KG class, i want to give ma std 2 exam again, i want learn all alphabets once again.

sachi batau ... i had always this feeling when am not satisfied with myself. When everything have a smooth run, you enjoy doing whatever u wish, everything that you do, you have fun and great pleasure, but this is not going to be the same for years to come. Satisfaction comes with the happiness caused to you by achieving. And what achievement i have achieved till now, if i asked this question to myself, i will come out with a void answer. scuumbing to distractions is easy n keeping self discipline is tough.

strains of life is so painful and toll taking, and am feeling this so early in ma life, i don know how will i be able to handle the pressure, tautness of life in years to come. I never had a luxury of dream run, run which I have enjoyed or have been appreciated to the core, i never had the pleasure of antidote and redemption.

Frankly speaking, why the hell, this question arises, why the hell we don't want the complication of life, why the hell we want to a lead distressful life, why the hell ......

someone has rightly said, first 18 yr of ur life is something that takes time, but next coming all years, how it goes .. u have no idea .. and this is what m experiencing 2day ...

Yesterday i read a article by Mr Amitabh Bachchan, where he had asked his father(Mr HariVansh Rai Bachchan), why was he born ? and his father gave his answer in the following poem, and i think its worth mentioning

Zindagi aur zamane ki kashmakash se
Ghabrakar mere ladke mujhse poochte hain,
“Hamme paida kyun kiya tha?”
Aur mere paas iske siwa
Koi jawab nahin hai
Ki mere baap ne bhi mujhse bina pooche
Mujhe paida kiya tha,
Aur mere baap se bina pooche unke baap ne, unhe,
Aur mere baba se bina pooche unke baap ne, unhe…
Zindagi aur zamane ki kashmakash
Pahle bhi thi Ab bhi hai, shayad zyada,
Aage bhi hogi, shayad aur zyada.
Tumhi nayi leek dharana,
Apne baytoen se poochkar unhe paida karma!

But being a true optimist, i will continue fighting, considering it as a call of duty, n that also without screeching and pouting. I know i will get lost, drifted, distraited, forgotten, fallen, exhausted, so what.... i will resume my stance, and complete the task with panache and in style . :)

Attitude makes it all ...

Positive attitude does matter a lot

Father : "I want you to marry a girl of my choice"
Son : "I will choose my own bride!"
Father : "But the girl is Bill Gates's daughter."
Son : "Well, in that case...ok"

Next - Father approaches Bill Gates.
Father : "I have a husband for your daughter."
Bill Gates : "But my daughter is too young to marry!"
Father : "But this young man is a vice-president of the World Bank."
Bill Gates : "Ah, in that case...ok"

Finally Father goes to see the president of the World Bank.
Father : "I have a young man to be recommended as a vice-president."
President : "But I already have more vice- presidents than I need!"
Father : "But this young man is Bill Gates's son-in-law."
President : "Ah, in that case...ok"This is how business is done!!

Moral:
Even If you have nothing
You can get Anything.
But your attitude should be positive...

Yaadein ..

Something meaningful thought, moment that we will always miss, remember in our entire life to come.


Woh school ki seedi woh pyaar bhari baatein,,,
Woh syllabus ki tension woh exam ki raatein,,,
Woh canteen ki party woh b'day ki laatein,,,
Woh ruthna manana woh bunk mulakate,,,,

Library mein woh sona
temporary woh music woh movie woh cards ki magic,,,,

Proposal ki planning mein raat ka gujarna,,,
Fir class k peehche ki seat pe sona,,,,

Library mein jakar chehro ko padna,,,
Betuki bato ko seriously lena,,,,
Woh matlab ki batein hasi mein udana,,,,

Na woh din hai na raate na gussa na baatein,,,,
Agar Kuch Hai To Bas "YAADEIN HI YAADEIN"

Tig Tag Tog

Its a long time, since i have written anything for my blog, so breaking the ice out here by tagging myself -:)


Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it
ahhh ... lem me find it out .. on the right side of chin (bt tht not so visible), got while fighting with ma cousin, who ws not ready to give chweet, small umbrealla ...

What does your phone look like?
manly, handy n on most kwl, thts my moto razr is all about. Black color makes it on top.


What is on the walls of your bedroom?
Nothing.. inshort i hate messing up walls of my bedroom unless its a something of utter importance. But i would love to keep picture of ma family near to my bed.

What is your current desktop picture?
Autum wallpaper provided by microsoft, i don like putting images of hot babes n nything sort of on my official workstation.

Do you believe in gay marriage?
*&^%$##%$$% ..... nOoooOoooooOo

What do you want more than anything right now?
at present, i want jacket or sweater as this office's AC will get me kill someday, seriouly m feeling cold, imagine how much cold it will b outside.

Are your parents still together?
Yeah ... very much ..

Last person who made you cry?
Is this necessary to take name of someone, who holds no imprtance in ur life
nymore.

What is your favorite perfume/cologne?
None.. as i beleive in trying out all sorts of perfume/cologne. i even don mind putting some feminine perfume.. wht matter most is that, i should like ...

What are you listening to?
ajab si .. frm OSO .. kk has sung this really well ...

Do you get scared of the dark?
U might be kidding ... yeah i agree, there were time whn i used to get scared by dark, but this is something what u master with each passing time .... bit philosphical na ... i know

Do you like pain killers?
Noooooooooooooo ... i hate taking pain killers unless there is no option left .....

If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
Rather thn eating, i would like to have a ginger tea, with bit of lemon on it .

Who was the last person who made you mad?
i don remember, is there any one .. i don think so .

Who was the last person who made you smile?
emmmm ... i think some one whom i call "amma"... heyy look .. u make me smile, don u think m giving you some importance in ma life ....

Is someone in love with you or u in love of someone?
nahiiiiiiiiii sayad haaaaaaaaaaaaa .. nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Three Things in my life I can never let go of
my ethics
my will power
my family n frnd

List 5 things that you want to say to people but never will. Don't say who they are.
I am in love with you.
Sometim you sucks ....
You r my sweetheart.
Am the best, don care for the rest.
Get this n get this straight..i NEED not tell you every single detail of my life

Five Things I'd Love To Do Before I Die
Go on a world tour alone
Bunzee jumping
Daru pii ke full talli honaaa. (i will really do one day ...)
To drive lexus

Five Things I Will Not Do Even If It Kills me
i don know .. let the time come.. i will tell you guys.

Two Things I Do When I'm Away From The Public
%$#%&@*~?e
Day dreaming

Five Fav Sentences/Quotes
Kya fark padta haii ...
rehne dee .. tera kuch nahi ho saktaa
Shhtttt
crap
chal hutt ... hawa aane dee ...

Five Things I'll Make You Wish You Didnt Do, If You Did
Asking for singing, acting or anything like that ...
Don't ask for money.. m a big broke.
chasing girl.
Asking for my personal stuff ..
Making me wait ...