Dilema

Tell me one thing, why can't we get back to our earlier days, days where we have our school, our bicycle, our tution, our school frnds, our school books, our tension of completing homework.

I want to live my school days back, i want to get back to my KG class, i want to give ma std 2 exam again, i want learn all alphabets once again.

sachi batau ... i had always this feeling when am not satisfied with myself. When everything have a smooth run, you enjoy doing whatever u wish, everything that you do, you have fun and great pleasure, but this is not going to be the same for years to come. Satisfaction comes with the happiness caused to you by achieving. And what achievement i have achieved till now, if i asked this question to myself, i will come out with a void answer. scuumbing to distractions is easy n keeping self discipline is tough.

strains of life is so painful and toll taking, and am feeling this so early in ma life, i don know how will i be able to handle the pressure, tautness of life in years to come. I never had a luxury of dream run, run which I have enjoyed or have been appreciated to the core, i never had the pleasure of antidote and redemption.

Frankly speaking, why the hell, this question arises, why the hell we don't want the complication of life, why the hell we want to a lead distressful life, why the hell ......

someone has rightly said, first 18 yr of ur life is something that takes time, but next coming all years, how it goes .. u have no idea .. and this is what m experiencing 2day ...

Yesterday i read a article by Mr Amitabh Bachchan, where he had asked his father(Mr HariVansh Rai Bachchan), why was he born ? and his father gave his answer in the following poem, and i think its worth mentioning

Zindagi aur zamane ki kashmakash se
Ghabrakar mere ladke mujhse poochte hain,
“Hamme paida kyun kiya tha?”
Aur mere paas iske siwa
Koi jawab nahin hai
Ki mere baap ne bhi mujhse bina pooche
Mujhe paida kiya tha,
Aur mere baap se bina pooche unke baap ne, unhe,
Aur mere baba se bina pooche unke baap ne, unhe…
Zindagi aur zamane ki kashmakash
Pahle bhi thi Ab bhi hai, shayad zyada,
Aage bhi hogi, shayad aur zyada.
Tumhi nayi leek dharana,
Apne baytoen se poochkar unhe paida karma!

But being a true optimist, i will continue fighting, considering it as a call of duty, n that also without screeching and pouting. I know i will get lost, drifted, distraited, forgotten, fallen, exhausted, so what.... i will resume my stance, and complete the task with panache and in style . :)

Attitude makes it all ...

Positive attitude does matter a lot

Father : "I want you to marry a girl of my choice"
Son : "I will choose my own bride!"
Father : "But the girl is Bill Gates's daughter."
Son : "Well, in that case...ok"

Next - Father approaches Bill Gates.
Father : "I have a husband for your daughter."
Bill Gates : "But my daughter is too young to marry!"
Father : "But this young man is a vice-president of the World Bank."
Bill Gates : "Ah, in that case...ok"

Finally Father goes to see the president of the World Bank.
Father : "I have a young man to be recommended as a vice-president."
President : "But I already have more vice- presidents than I need!"
Father : "But this young man is Bill Gates's son-in-law."
President : "Ah, in that case...ok"This is how business is done!!

Moral:
Even If you have nothing
You can get Anything.
But your attitude should be positive...

Yaadein ..

Something meaningful thought, moment that we will always miss, remember in our entire life to come.


Woh school ki seedi woh pyaar bhari baatein,,,
Woh syllabus ki tension woh exam ki raatein,,,
Woh canteen ki party woh b'day ki laatein,,,
Woh ruthna manana woh bunk mulakate,,,,

Library mein woh sona
temporary woh music woh movie woh cards ki magic,,,,

Proposal ki planning mein raat ka gujarna,,,
Fir class k peehche ki seat pe sona,,,,

Library mein jakar chehro ko padna,,,
Betuki bato ko seriously lena,,,,
Woh matlab ki batein hasi mein udana,,,,

Na woh din hai na raate na gussa na baatein,,,,
Agar Kuch Hai To Bas "YAADEIN HI YAADEIN"

Tig Tag Tog

Its a long time, since i have written anything for my blog, so breaking the ice out here by tagging myself -:)


Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it
ahhh ... lem me find it out .. on the right side of chin (bt tht not so visible), got while fighting with ma cousin, who ws not ready to give chweet, small umbrealla ...

What does your phone look like?
manly, handy n on most kwl, thts my moto razr is all about. Black color makes it on top.


What is on the walls of your bedroom?
Nothing.. inshort i hate messing up walls of my bedroom unless its a something of utter importance. But i would love to keep picture of ma family near to my bed.

What is your current desktop picture?
Autum wallpaper provided by microsoft, i don like putting images of hot babes n nything sort of on my official workstation.

Do you believe in gay marriage?
*&^%$##%$$% ..... nOoooOoooooOo

What do you want more than anything right now?
at present, i want jacket or sweater as this office's AC will get me kill someday, seriouly m feeling cold, imagine how much cold it will b outside.

Are your parents still together?
Yeah ... very much ..

Last person who made you cry?
Is this necessary to take name of someone, who holds no imprtance in ur life
nymore.

What is your favorite perfume/cologne?
None.. as i beleive in trying out all sorts of perfume/cologne. i even don mind putting some feminine perfume.. wht matter most is that, i should like ...

What are you listening to?
ajab si .. frm OSO .. kk has sung this really well ...

Do you get scared of the dark?
U might be kidding ... yeah i agree, there were time whn i used to get scared by dark, but this is something what u master with each passing time .... bit philosphical na ... i know

Do you like pain killers?
Noooooooooooooo ... i hate taking pain killers unless there is no option left .....

If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
Rather thn eating, i would like to have a ginger tea, with bit of lemon on it .

Who was the last person who made you mad?
i don remember, is there any one .. i don think so .

Who was the last person who made you smile?
emmmm ... i think some one whom i call "amma"... heyy look .. u make me smile, don u think m giving you some importance in ma life ....

Is someone in love with you or u in love of someone?
nahiiiiiiiiii sayad haaaaaaaaaaaaa .. nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Three Things in my life I can never let go of
my ethics
my will power
my family n frnd

List 5 things that you want to say to people but never will. Don't say who they are.
I am in love with you.
Sometim you sucks ....
You r my sweetheart.
Am the best, don care for the rest.
Get this n get this straight..i NEED not tell you every single detail of my life

Five Things I'd Love To Do Before I Die
Go on a world tour alone
Bunzee jumping
Daru pii ke full talli honaaa. (i will really do one day ...)
To drive lexus

Five Things I Will Not Do Even If It Kills me
i don know .. let the time come.. i will tell you guys.

Two Things I Do When I'm Away From The Public
%$#%&@*~?e
Day dreaming

Five Fav Sentences/Quotes
Kya fark padta haii ...
rehne dee .. tera kuch nahi ho saktaa
Shhtttt
crap
chal hutt ... hawa aane dee ...

Five Things I'll Make You Wish You Didnt Do, If You Did
Asking for singing, acting or anything like that ...
Don't ask for money.. m a big broke.
chasing girl.
Asking for my personal stuff ..
Making me wait ...

dReAmS

What the word dream is all about????

The answer could b different for different people.

For some one, it could be the moment that describes u to excel in your league, It could be the thought that u would hv thought in your school days, or may b in college life Or it can be the thing seen while sleeping...

Meaning is different for different person or what I think, if a dream can make some one work harder for ur goal to achieve, than at the same time if a dream not achieved, can break u in tears. Also don u think, for fulfilling your dream, u always need 2 hv support system on.

For me a dream is something that we saw in our childhood, to do something that’s makes u feel good. Dream of making ur mom, work less by doing some daily work, dream of studying hard, so that papa don shout on u, dream of studying in good colleges, dream of riding hybusa, dream for doing something that make u and ur family proud, dream of .... bla bla ..

This is human tendency...we keep striving for the best and as we have d capabilities we achieve the best still we keep having the sense of some kinda emptiness inside and to fill the void we keep running trying to catch everything which seems to fill tht void whether its good or bad.....

I was chasing a dream as if some one hypnotized me, was doing all the things that I thought would b doing... thn something hit ma imagination n that hypnotism broke, suddenly i became conscious as if i woke from something which I didn’t want to...

bt u hv to get out of bed someday and go on the path, that u would hv thought.. would b doing in the real world to make that dream come true n make it big with the best which u have in the arms ... n that’s the truth.

This One is all about me.

This one is all about me .
July 11 was ma Birthday. And I completed 23. So to celebrate myself, here are 23 things you may or may not know about me.

1. I'm the youngest of 3 kids- 2 Brother , 1 sister.

2. Most of my birthdays growing up were spent at home. I remember one year we were in nani ma's house for my birthday. I thought It was so cool

3. I love reading, bt never managed 2 read more thn three books :( till now rather thn academics.

4. I love dadi ma most among all. she is darling of mine and will always love me irrespective of whatever i do. Dadi maa .. "I Love You.. " She is the one who brought me more thn ma mom as she ws not well for the first 5 yr.

5. I grew up in Bihar, so typically bihari ba heart . :)))

6. Ma eternal desire is to go on world tour, njoying food n chicks all over the world ... :))))

7. Basically, I just love music in general. There is nothing that i say .. ki i don like. These days.. Summer of 69 is ma favourite.

8. I am die hard fan of Sourav Ganguly, if some one talk ill abt him, i feel like giving him a punch on his nose, bt cnt.. dada, u carry on with ur good work for india.

9. I havent been on date yet. :(

10. Totally virgin. :)

11. I love TV. Infact, i got spec just beacause of tv viewing, i guess. I love watching cricket,talk show (meaning ful wale ..), informative serials, n many more ...

12. Sometimes I wish I were born in a rich family, where u had everything that u desire. Thn also, m lucky enough to have father like ma dad.

13. I was the house captain in the school.

14. When i was younger, i wanted to grow up either defence personnel or a Cricketer.

15. I’m a shy boy at heart. Only these last few years have I shed a lot of my shyness, thn also a lot of things to b done. I’m still quiet, though.

16. My first job was at lall's Copper, in Delhi where i ws more of a operator.. computer operator. Although i learned a lot, not technically but practically abt the life and the people.

17. I really like to cook. I’m not so keen on cooking different dishes, but more of usual stuff.

18. I’m not very tidy. I’m definitely not a neat freak, but I’m not super messy. Monday morning.. u will hav everything on the block, bt at the end of week, u will hv block of everything.

19. Preity was ma first crush, Honey was ma first love, ayesha is ma latest mush.

20. m a terrible dancer and on top, a horrible singer. (u remember ajay devgan in hum dil de chuke sanam)

21. During CDAC days, Dhiraj bhai was great help 2 me, inshort " Mentor ". Man, u helped me a lot, n i know u will not accept it, bt actually u did.

22. I did ma graduation from delhi, so all the gr8 memory (infact a lot ..) remains there. I hope to return one day. It’s the most beautiful place in the world.

23. Thinking of buying bike for me, somewhere around November. Black Bajaj Pulsar 150 DTSI. Hope till then will get some gorgeous lady to sit with me …. ha ha ha ha he he he ho ho ho …


Uff .. I thought it would b easy writing, bt it was hard 2 find something 23 point about urself.

My Room Mates ..

If u r living out, especially for studies or for job n u r a bachelor on a top of it , then whom u think u will face day n night, .. Ofcourse roomies, roommates.. kuch bhi kahooo .. its jst a synonyms.

i moved to delhi some five years ago and have been living there till i moved to pune, some eight months back. .

Well for the first six months, i had the anshuman as a room partner, n u will nt beleive ki we met on our first day of the college at the entrance of lecture room. There we had hi, hello to each other, thn during conversation, we came to know ki, we are frm same state, even same place jst a bridge parting our house way back in our home town.

Then we exchanged our numbers, n after 4 days, i was with him, for the first time in ma life..i was living with a person , whom i don knw. Infact Rooming together was a new experience as far as I was concerned. But if u have a room mates like anshuman to start with, thn u r lucky. Frankly speaking he is ma dear , usski hur adaa (jo thodi bahoot hai :)) is unique and care for none if he is on song

It was a lot of fun setting up a new house together. We got to know each other and had good times -- pillow fights, water fights and some real fights. We had dinner together regularly, we rented DVDs and watched late night movies and porn together, we had innumerable all-night gossip sessions and late night tea sessions.

It was as if we were setting new homes altogether, as we were bored of eating out , so we decide to cook at home, thn the reall fun begun. As we both were inexperienced n have never cooked, back home , so u can imagine how the life will b. But thn only, u know how the life will b, whn u will b on your own.

After 8 months or so, amiit and anukul and later nitesh joined us.

Amit by nature was gr8 and very helping, bt some time very possesive. He is infact a person who knows all ma secret. No doubt u cn count on him. He has got greaaaaat sence of humour.. trust me but if you r with him.. u'll be laughing all the time.. VERY FUNNY GUY..great man.. you rock.But haa .. he hates wtaching porn, bt except this, he will do all other nonsense u cn think of . Never to mention out here, if i had a fight 10 times with ma roomies,
7 out of 10 would hv been with amit. Thn also we share a gr8 rapo.


Anukul.. a great champ, a jack of all trade, n most of it , he knows how to handle things and is improving days by day. He has got the art of learning frm you n thn he will outdo u in that itself.

Nitesh .. A prominent member of my 734/35 Gang. He was least interested in academics but most innovative in designing pranks and other activities. I still have image totally cystal clear in ma mind ki, how he ws crying after he has a break up with his long time gf. You wont beleive .. ki he was crying lika a child.. really his situation was terrible .. thn also this is wht we call life.. where u learn how to react n what at which situation.

We looked after each other and tended to whoever took ill; at the same time, we learned to give each other space when required.The years flew by and enjoyed every moment -- having dinner together, going out for evening walks around colony, the B'day celebration, the leg pulling of Madhuran Bhaiya, the race to finish NFS earliest and a hundred other things.

We had a cooking rota system -- each of us was responsible for a meal by turn -- and we shared all the household bills. Now this is where conflicts often cropped up, usually due to miscalculations. Nitesh formed a habit of borrowing money from the rest of us, always promising to return it the coming month. When the time came to pay bills, he would do the same thing, convincing us that he would reimburse us at a later date.

That is not to say it was rosy between us all the time. There are always compromises and adjustments to be made -- some amicably and some with closed fists and gritted teeth. Thn also my roommates cared for me like a brother, and I will remain forever indebted to them. Today I am working in Gameloft and has jst completed ma first 4 months. I can't find the words to thank Anshuman, Amit, Anukul and Nitesh, and will always be grateful to them for helping me make my way here.

I hope, I hv done enough justice in writing abt each room mates.

I hope you find the story of my stay with roommates inspiring -- it may also help you in some ways, to adjust and live happily with those who migrate to big cities to study, to work, and to make new friends.