Just a 10 min back, i was talking to one of my good friend who was yelling on the fucking system, trying to flock the whole herd by explaining the damm importance of being their existence. He was so adamant in his approach, to let it go. But my dear friend, grass is always greener to the other side.
Is it important to go with the tried n tasted formula, why we remember Shahjahan for making Taj Mahal, but not the architect who design this marvel, not the skilled labourer who executed its existence. My friend was frustrated on his managers/system, in fact we all are, if we put our heart n soul in something, why the hell did managers take away all the credit with first place, n then we given a mention in a column that are hardly seen by world.
We always complain/rant about all the other non important things, and always try to be handy on these count. But, it wont be good, if we go around excelling first what we are assigned to, rather than making accusation.
Why we look around(people, past, scenario) to have a judgment on any one, why not we listen or bank upon on our decision making abilities. We Man, evolve in our own way, results ought to be different on different count.
Is the system, that we r used to live with, is cripple enough to get it changed or replaced or the way of our viewing things should be par with the system.
Is the social networking site should be taken seriously, when it comes to judge the emotion of the other person's comment, link, post, etc.
I have a solution, why not they should provide us with a emotional count tab. If you post a comment, have it emotional count, say 9 out of 10, 5 out of 10. Then also, will it justify ???
Why the things loses his shine, when it is most required. n why we r left to the chorus of fate, when we can sing it solo with our own determination. why the campus of life had only two direction to show, either success or failure.
Yeah, i know, i have contradicted myself a lot to put on a point of being a nonsense, to be a general to get knocked down by his own battalion. But, isn't this irony of life, where expected are least excepted.
cheeeeeeeeeeerrrsssss
(_)>
scotch to end it all ...:)
i need an answer
Looking Ahead with an eye On the Past
As the world goes on, there always seems to an end at some point, and we continue chasing that end, and when we reach that end point, we realized .. wholla .. still miles to go before we hang our boot off.
I guess, year passing is always had the same trick, where you look at the end of year to have point covered (that you promised at the start of year), and when you are finally in the month of Dec, you get the idea.. Half work done...
And am not lucky enough to escape from this virile trick of chasing down. The year 2008 has no doubt, it had its up n down.
The year 2009 had started with a promise of
> Getting loved, getting acknowledged by the surroundings
> To get rid of my "kya fark padta hai"(KFPH) attitute
> With an urge to forget /\ /\/\ /\/\ /\
> To get intense with life
> To open out more, to rant more
> To stay calm, attain peace of mind
> To have more substance of work
> To spend less, save more
> To get rid of all my borrowing
> To be more reactive
> Think positive and believe in yourself
> Make more friends
> Making 2009 a worth to look back
> m sure, there are more to add.. so i think i should stop here, else list goes on ..
And look, at the end of 2009, where i stand. If i take some point off from the list, and add quite a few, it stays the same for year 2010.
Well, apart from the list, 2009 had something to cheer. I gifted myself bike(Devil) on my birthday and had notebook(laptop) as Diwali gift.Our Master All Classics/100 All Time Favorite hit the deck in the start of Dec, mind you MAC/ATF is the first game where i worked as programmer from the conception phase to getting it candidate master. Well, i think i should have to be more polite and high on socializing rather than getting myself trapped in no man's land.
At the personal front, i think i need to find some one who can cheer me up when am down, to make me realize how much she loves me, to make me laugh with her naughtiest action, mischievous word, who hate me when i c some raunchy(porn) stuff or ogle at other girls, whom i am at ease to extent where i don care, ki my word/action will b judged, whom i can hug to the core where we feel one, who wishes me all the good thing, who searches my arm to relax her in spite of pillow, who think am having the biggest chest to swallow her while hugging to make her feel protected, who seeks me every time when she's happy or sad, whom i can offer my costliest shirt just to get her just nosey off or wipe her tears down, whom i can scream n say out loud... "You are the bestest thing ever happened to me .." :)))))))))
So, signing 2009 off with a bang and looking forward to 2010, as i hope, coming year will bring prosperity not to me, but to every one. No resolution, nothing as these are all just a false promises, and i sucks @ making one of them.
Happy New Year 2010
PS : A person with a genuine heart and yet a stoned one when it comes to love.
PPS : Love is when someone breaks your heart and the most amazing thing is that u still love them with every broken piece of your heart
Committed to me,myself,sAu
I wish ...
Every person in this world will be having a Wish or a list of wish to die for.
It always true that sometime u need to wish, to make it happen. And one wish leads to another, cause this world is materialistic, the more you get , the more you wish... as one of the shahrukh khan ad says,
" Thoda aur wish karo "
As the title of the post say, I wish .., so there is nothing wrong if i wish for myself, some of which i think i can get, some of which i think i won't.
I wish .. i had all the ability to be a good blogger
I wish .. i had numerous visit/comment on my blog
I wish .. i had sachin tendulkar, AB following my blog
I wish .. i had unique/killing way of representing things on my blog
I wish .. i were a cricketer, guitarist, pianist, writer, lecturer, pilot
I wish .. i were working in a blue collar job, where u need to wear suit :)
I wish .. i were the mastermind behind one of the blue chip company emerging fast
I wish .. i were the creative director of an AD company
I wish .. i could go to dad/mom, n say .. i love you and hugged them tight
I wish .. i had my dadi maa, with me all the time
I wish .. i had the charm of my dada ji or my bade paa..
I wish .. i would be able to live up to the expectation of my family
I wish .. I had studio apartment on the top floor, facing best of scenic beauty
I wish .. I had Lexus SUV to drive
I wish .. I had full wardrobe of various top brands of world
I wish .. I had earned the tag of head - turner/stunner
I wish .. I had friends who showed up when i need them
I wish .. I had friends who instead of going cold, could come n state the fuck of all
I wish .. I were a gossip master/task maker to entertain my frndLots
I wish .. I had never ending school/college days
I wish .. I had never been turned down by any girl (esp last one)
I wish .. I were lucky in my love life
I wish .. I had one solid affair to learn my mistake
I wish .. I had found love, not twice but thousands times
I wish .. I didn't had developed cynic approach towards love
I wish .. I can put a full stop on my never ending desire
As i wrote my wish, i know i can make them true, not all but atleast quite a sum of.
What i feel, wish is one of the stepping stone for things to happen.
The more you wish, the more urge you will have to make it happen.
Give me some Sunshine
Give me some rain
Give me another chance
wana grow up once again
Committed to me, myself, sAu
tu jaane na ...
Kaise batayein
Kyun tujhko chahe
Yaara batha na paayein
Baatein dil o ki
Dekho jo baki
Aake tujhe samjhaein
Tu jaane na aaaa..
Tu jaane na
Tu jaane na aaaa..
Tu jaane na
Hmm milke bhi, hum na mile
Tumse na jaane kyun, milo ke,
Hai phasle tumse na jaane kyun
Anjaane, hai silsile
Tum se na jaane kyun, sapne hai
Palko tale tum se na jaane kyunnnnnn…
I wish, i had someone to sing for...
Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeers .....
sAu
Kaminey ...
Hindi Song: Kaminey
Singers: Vishal Bhardwaj
Lyricist: Gulzar
Music Director: Vishal Bhardwaj
Kya kare zindagi
isko hum jo miley
iski jaan kha gaye
raat din ke giley
raat din giley
meri aarzoo kameenee
mere khwab bhi kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi
kaminey
kabhi zindagi se maanga
pinjare mein chand la do
kabhi lalten de ke
kaha aasma pe taango
jeene ke sab kareene
the hamesha se kaminey
meri dastaan kameenee
mere raaste kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi kaminey
jiska bhi chehra chila
andar se aur nikla
masoom sa kabootar
naacha toh mor nikla
kabhi hum kaminey nikle
kabhi dosti kameenee
maere yaar bhi kaminey
ik dil se dosti thi
yeh hazoor bhi kaminey
A must listen song for everyone, who believe in the "karma". I haven't seen the movie yet, as release is delayed in pune by 3 days because of Swine Flu, then also, the review it had generated till now is impressive and magnificent. It reflects the real meaning of being in the world, it deals the majestic touch of life, where everyone is "kaminey", which is terrifying and spooky, and at the same time very striking and overwhelming.
The sequence where shahid runs with the stallion, and that's shirtless... Great shot, (Don think, m a gay or like that :|, its brilliantly shot, and i wonder when i'll have those kinda chest and abs... :D) striking music and breathtaking running by shahid is the high point. Hats OFF to Vishal and Co...
committed to me, myself and sAu
11 July 09 ..
Celebrating B'day is always going to be fun, so was mine.
Continuing the legacy, here comes the ups n down of 2008 - 2009.
So, Here comes the 25 pointer ...
1) Being in Ubisoft, is almost having a ride to a bumpy surface. The whole last year in ubisoft, was like a roller coaster ride. Got an appraisal, and that what we called "utt ke muh mein zeera", recession time .. you know na..
2) "Master All Classics", is releasing this Christmas. This is the game that we made. Title is ready for Nintendo submission, lets have finger crossed. First major title, where i worked as programmer, and that's from scratch. At last, something to cheer, as last one year was all gloomy and full of sloppy things .
3) Last three months, i had long working hours, better to say .. 10 am to 12 midnight, and even to 3 am. Now, as submission is about to hit, so bit relaxed n enjoying ... :)
4) Finally, gifted myself bike, a Pulsar 180CC... and that on my birthday, a long awaited list in my "To Buy" list. I know, am wiccan enough to take this long to buy, after planning from last 2 and 1/2 years. I tell you, it gets to 40-50 kmph in 5 sec, that's amazing na ...
5) Planning to have laptop by the end of this year, lets c whether it materializes or ???
6) Finally, Dhiraj bhai got married this may. Lemme tell you, he is enjoying every second of married life. When he got back to pune, after marriage, facial expression/mood was something to look out for, as if bulb has lost his filament, and it knows where it is, but cant dare to pick it up.
7) It was very regretful, not to witness dhiraj bhai wedding, as my leaves were canceled. I know, how pissed off, dhiraj bhai was/is, but Dhiraj Bhai, it was not in my hand, and am extremely sorry, ki i cant make it to your wedding.
8) Anshuman, my BFF joined in Delhi, so he also left pune. Now, this place sucks ...
God save me ..
9) Getting alone day by day. First Ayesha went, then anshuman went to delhi, and now dhiraj bhai going . "sabi chor ke chale gayein ... " I know, its for the good cause, then also .. it hurts when you start feeling, that you getting left out.
10) World is selfish, full of hypocrite people, they even themselves don't know, where they stand, but will stand tall on their self imposed greatness.
11) How can the person with whom u breathed every moment from morning to night suddenly turn stranger? How strange na, we were at "start" in 2007, "high" in 2008 and in 2009, she didn't even think of wishing me on my birthday. How lame one can be ..
12) Then also, I was GLAD to know you, gladed to left you behind. All i say, "Every Relationship comes with a expiry date."
13) I don beleive in love anymore, what we call ... "Once bitten, twice shy"
14) My eternal wish is to work outside india for 2 - 3 years atleast, where no one knows me, where i can start a fresh, where i can live in my solitude, where i can restore my confidence in love,myself, where i can have rendezous with myself.
15) I love "How I met your mother", a hilarious sitcom, a must watch.. especially Barney Stinson and his bro code... a great character who create awful situation and enjoy to watch or being at that situation. He has a key of all lock and always willing to poke his nose in whatever situation. A great example of friendship, i mean he always stand for his friend (Ted, Robinson, Lilly, Marshal), no matter how much trouble they r in.I am great fan of his "Awesomeness..."
" When i get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. True Story. " Barney Stinsons
16) I am getting skinny ..looked sick.. may be it was coz of work schdule i have ..or the nail in heart ..
17) Still didn't donated blood ...
18) Was fulltu out in one of the ubisoft party, did everything what one is supposed to do after ... no more details.. o_0
19) Have to try drugs(G n all), atleast one shot... (i don know why ... )
20) Am a person who beleives more in letting things happen, rather than make them happen.
21) I miss you a lot, i know it sounds trite. Then also, every beginning has an end. Have still kept you alive in my thoughts.
22) I guess, i were more self determined, in all aspect of life.
23) I hate people, who didn't pick up phone, after continous ringing or even put me on hold. You have the brain to talk "badi badi" baatein, but didnt have guts in ur ass to pick up the phone and state the reason whatever it is.
24) My broking continues ... :(((((
25) Read some good books in last year, hope to continue trend for years to come.
I know, am bit late in posting, then also, digging 25 point is a big ask, and c, i completed at last. I need a pat.. don't i ... :)
committed to me, myself, sAu
11th July
Your not wishing me, suggest where i stand.
Thanks, thanks a lot ..
This is what i was expecting. To be honest, i was bit hopeful, ki kahi, you will wish me. But, then also .. Thanks .. Thanks a lot.
Gifted myself bike, Devil is what i call it. :)
Soon, i'll write my b'day post, where i put my all the happening of last year.
This is first B'day, which i celebrated with my office mate, as am working on this night.
It was awesome, to be greeted like this. Never expected, but it was delightful, and full of elegance.
Thanks to all my office mate.
You guys rocks ...
Retrospection
It's really strange when you retrospect for your childhood crush, for whom we used to go to any level of nonsense, to grab a opportunity to meet him/her or to see him/her... How a short lived infatuation/fondness can lead to some goofiest situation/action, no one can even imagine. Being in love and being loved is two different things, but when you have crush on someone... Who the hell think of all this, there is only one hope, where you want to be noticed some time intentionally or sometime unintentionally...
The last night, lying on the bed, watching star over head, when I thought of this, then my impatient mind stalked two name, i.e preity and dhramshilla. So, let’s have a peek a boo with them.
Dhramshilla mam was our class teacher, when i was in class 6th. Her innocence face, simplicity, and sexiness made me feel for her. I know it’s kinda weird to think of her, but what to do, when you are at the blossoming age of your raw sexiness, nothing is wrong. The way she used to take name, it was way enough to make you numb for a while. She no doubt, were having best figure (lol) among all.
And preity, one of the most cherished crush... she was beautiful, innocent, cute and all the adjective that you can think of. Rahul, will definitely tell you, how mad I was for her, after all he was my informer, as she used to live in her locality. I still remember how I used to wait for 3.50 pm for a glimpse of her, as she used to cross my building for her tuition. I invested quite a few night, in thinking, how to have a word with her, I mean how to strike a conversation/friendship, whether to give some gift or some soft toys, how she will react... bla bla ... but unfortunately it didn't happened. I know, it was doltish to make an email id "sau_prit@hotmial.com" where sau stands for saurabh and prit stand for preity, but who care... I really adore the time of my bhartendu’s sir tuition, from where all this started. It was more of routine to see her in morning in her balcony, where she used to brush her teeth, and every time if she did something diff from other day, rahul was sure ki, she was giving some hint, and all I have to do is to take a foot forward.
But we never had eye to eye contact for more than 4 sec or so, why I don’t know, if I would have clue, surely she would have been mine.. Be +ve yaaar .. Then also, the whole morning incident was more of fun, and especially thinking about how to strike a chord with her was one of the craziest or wackiest thing, could happen to me...
Well, this was one of the tales that I shared here, it’s almost true ki somewhere at any point of time, everyone had a crush in his/her life, and to get back to those memories is almost digging a mine of golden memories. I know, both my crush got crashed before it could take off.. Then also, this is what we called life ... I am sure, both of them will be enjoying their life with all the ups and downs.
I urge every reader of this, to share their experience of crush, which definitely make you feel good. And if something can bring smile on you, then give it a shot na...
A thoughtful message to end this....
"Sometimes we struggle through tasteless coffee till the last sip and we find sugar lying at the end, THAT'S LIFE... always sweetened but sometimes not stirred"
committed to me,myself, sAu
Tag Tig Tog
How much i care you, you don know ...
Love is eternal, Love is bliss ..
Love is something, that makes you reeling n rocking ...
Name one person who made you laugh last night?
Did i laughed last night .... lol
What were you doing at 0800?
Taking bath, office jaana hota hai yaar ...
What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Sipping mazaa with kitkat, it tastes great
What happened to you in 2006?
Was seaching job, infact in mid 2006, got selected in CDAC... and rest becomes history.
What was the last thing you said out loud?
jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahe mujhe koi jungali kaheinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn .......
yahooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
How many beverages did you have today?
aeeeeeee .. 2 cups of tea, one cup of capechino, and one mazaa .. bus ..
What was the last thing you paid for?
for mazaa and kitkat, tht i bought in office canteen
Where were you last night?
ghar pe...
What color is your front door?
wooden color
Where do you keep your change?
wallet
What’s the weather like today?
hot.. pata nahi delhi wali mausam yaha kaha se aa gayi ...
What’s the best ice-cream flavor?
butterscoth ...
my fav ..
What excites you?
smile, cuteness, smartness, and *&^&%% ...
ha ha ha he he he ho ho ho
Do you want to cut your hair?
i want to shave it off, but ...
Are you over the age of 25?
hhmm ...
and clock is ticking faster day by day. Frankly speaking, i don have any clue how fast i aged 25.
fuck man, am 25 .. holy shiiiit
Do you talk a lot?
naaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
Do you know anyone named Steven?
naaaaahhhhh
Do you make up your own words?
Your own words bole toh....
I beleive in myself..
Are you a jealous person?
Not exactly.. am jealous of more of success that other people enjoy, but in healthier manner
Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’.
...... alias Amma
Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’.
Sorry .....
Who’s the first person on your received call list?
I don know, it was wrong number
Do you chew on your straw?
nooo
Do you have curly hair?
Straight
Where’s the next place you’re going to?
ghar.. sweet home ghar...
Who’s the rudest person in your life?
pata nahi, abhi toh koi nahi..
But, i have seen people changing... ...
What was the last thing you ate?
Chocolates!
What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks?
I haven't seen any movie in last 2 week, waise i tried watching "nights in rodathe", but failed. So will complete this week.
Is there anyone you like right now?
Yes, of course.... But, it's of no use.
cause i know, she didn't give any flying fuck over this.
When was the last time you did the dishes?
last sat, no maid, poor me...
Are you currently depressed?
Not exactly, but, am not happy with myself ..
whenever i think, i have everything, something start missing ...
Did you cry today?
Noooo ... last time i cried way back in dec 2003... usske baad toh jaise aasu sukh hi gayein ....
kitna bhi chahoo .. rona aataa hi nahii ... i tried few months before ... but failed ...
Why did you answer and post this?
Because this was interesting! and my blog was missing me .... :)))))
Who do you tag next?
Kisi ko nahi ...
cause no one follow this blog, except me ...
Committed to me , myself, sAu
Chillest Zone -- Home/Holi
Beleive me, after journey of 30 hrs of indian railways, you never regret the worthiness of it. Travelling in indian railways is fun in itself. It shows you, not full then also the half india. The 72 seat bogey carry some 250 indiviual in its peak season i.e diwali n holi. So, my journey was no more less bharat darshan, as i also saw some 15 adjusting in single compartment.
I have no idea, how this holi is going to be, as i am all alone this time, no frnds at all, all busy with their hustling and bustling carrer, out of hajipur. The whole one year has been a roller coaster ride for me, last holi and this holi ... ............... Then also, i have whole gang lined up of tiny cousins and bhabhis. Hannu, in particular is excited to play holi with his bintu uncle.
This holi, i was planning to have bhang, but unforunately, am at home, so this chucked out my plan of having bhang. I wana taste it, after all lemme check how it feels to eat n sings like "bhang ka rang" ...
Three days already gone, another 3 days to end this holi trip. you know, time is passing like a bullet train, it seems this world is at the verge of ending and god had fasten the day night cycle, the usual 24 hr has been shortend to some 12 hrs. Three day .... wow .. this time is moving hell ahead of his usual period.
Chalo then..
Have colurful holi...
play with whatever u get.. after all "bura naa manoo holi haii ..."
Committed to me, myself, sAu
Welcome 2009 .... Bye Bye 2008 ...
December..
Don't you remeber something... i mean, something at the verge of ending. Yes.. the so much ho-hoolaah that we guys created last year for this coming 2008 @ that time, has switched for 2009, then also, same intensity, same enjoyment, same amusement... hey Happy New Year .....
Anyway... Happy New Year ...
2008 has been like a roller coaster ride for me. It makes me learn a lot of things, gave oppurtunity to face some of the unchallenged terrain, infact i collected enriching experience from friends, family, love, office, surroundings. A very thanks to all those who made my years, no matter how they contributed, even a bad move taught me a lot.
One thing am very sure, this 2008 will always, going to be memmorable for all the wrong reason ...
when i started writing this blog, i thought it going to be long, but pata nahi .. i don feel like writing. Just a few lines to finish this year.
Things changes, priority changes ..
words changes, orator changes..
what not change, is the learning curve ...
curve, sometime steep, sometime slim...
u wana break away from me,
u wana end it all, end it to core..
bt just rem, . .... ...
we saw a dream for us..
wana make them true for us..
but u wana break away from me
Once you said, 'you are my best friend'
and i tried to make every moment worth living.
There is pain, deep inside ..
there is memory running all the time,
tell me how i get rid of all this..
I know, its crap to think,
just tell me, how i take care of my dejection, rejection..
It really makes me feel alone.. makes me feel ...
i was once capable of getting loved.
Okay, i am little unstable
But, I'm okay
It hurt, when i rem all the moments spent together..
i know, i'll b sounding loser to you..
but, how do i forget laughter I loved so much
how do i forget fun i had u with ..
how do i forget you ...
how do i forget you ...
Hope 2009 bring something more cheerer and nearer to me that ever before.
Thanks 2008 for your kindness, you showed and showered to me.
Welcome 2009 ...
no resolution nothing...
All i want to be happy, stay calm, attain peace of mind, more subtsnace of work, good health for me and for all .....
Cheers .....
Plethora of emotion... some justified .. some questioned ...
B'day are always meant for celebration, time to party with frnds, to drink without flunk ....
So, here it is, 11th July, this auspicious day i completed my 24 and beated the drum for 25th.
Completing my 24 and not writing blog for me, yeh kaise ho sakta haii ....
So here it is, continuing the tradition of telling about myself,that i started last year...
so, in this blog, am trying to point out 24 thing that i found in myself, changed, adapted, advanced, altered, expected to do, change required, resolution ....
Here, it goes
1) Ubisoft Ent Pvt Ltd, transition from gameloft to ubisoft, from mobile to console, a dream come true. Every mobile game programmer dreams to make it big, bigger on PC, and biggest on xbox,PS,WII.
2) Same salary, thts unfortunate, it should be bigger and better.
3) fifa maniac, something which am enjoying these days, last year tak, soccer.. thts boring,
4) my broking and borrowing stil continues. :(
5) no bike till now :(-_-_
6) learnt quite a bit abt love, hatred, betray, emotion, sentiment ...
7) i miss my family a lot.(i guess its not new, but am missing all this a lot these days).
8) i haven't been on date yet. :(-_-
9) But got the chance to live some wonderful, notable, phenomenal moments with some one special, that am gonna cherish for years 2 come. :)
(Hey.. if u reading, i really mean it, from the core of my heart.)
10) Lost some more hair, i guess next year i will b bald. :(-_-_
11) Planning to get iPhone this year. Don laugh, i know m big time liar, but kya karu ...... :) :)
12) yehhhhhhhhhhhhh... i read "The Alchemist", presently "The Kite Runner" is on.
13) traveling + trekking is something i wana do, seriously m gonna give it a try.
14) saw colors of friendship with my frnd, whom i used to call ma "lagootia" yaar.
15) Got a brand new watch, courtesy :: Dhiraj Bhai + Anshuman + Rajeev (mind you, its my B'day gift from them. Thanks a lot)
16) From a complete shy boy, i changed to someone, who prefer to speak his mind. But still need more effort in shedding my shyness.
17) With ayesha, i learnt the meaning of emotion, agaption, apprehension, explored love, enhanced my expressing thing, etc etc. (Hats off 2 u)
18) I really wana improve my speaking skill, and way of putting things, cause sometime it leads me down, and it something that hurt u most, when u know, u r right, but u wouldn't able to get justified. Also, it put me in some serious situation which shouldn''t be followed.
19) I have to outdo my sarcastic style of attitude in some situation, which sometimes break relation before getting it full proof cemented.
20) Getting fatter and motter day by day .... :(-_-
21) I need to socialise a bit more, bit of networking is needed to be more efficient and affective.
22) will donate blood this year, thats for sure.
23) I need to be more efficient, adequate, competent and economic in my work, cause there is no point in working hard, working smart should be the motto.
24) need to take more initiative, cause it something that pushes you further in your carrer.
cause 20 years from now it wont matter... what shoes you wore... what jeans you bought... or how your hair looked... what will matter is WHAT YOU LEARNT AND HOW YOU USED IT!!!
Atlast, i completed, frankly speaking it was herculean task to identify all these 24 point in yourself, and i did it. So i need a pat, of course i need .....
Dilema
I want to live my school days back, i want to get back to my KG class, i want to give ma std 2 exam again, i want learn all alphabets once again.
someone has rightly said, first 18 yr of ur life is something that takes time, but next coming all years, how it goes .. u have no idea .. and this is what m experiencing 2day ...
Zindagi aur zamane ki kashmakash se
Ghabrakar mere ladke mujhse poochte hain,
“Hamme paida kyun kiya tha?”
Aur mere paas iske siwa
Koi jawab nahin hai
Ki mere baap ne bhi mujhse bina pooche
Mujhe paida kiya tha,
Aur mere baap se bina pooche unke baap ne, unhe,
Aur mere baba se bina pooche unke baap ne, unhe…
Zindagi aur zamane ki kashmakash
Pahle bhi thi Ab bhi hai, shayad zyada,
Aage bhi hogi, shayad aur zyada.
Tumhi nayi leek dharana,
Apne baytoen se poochkar unhe paida karma!
But being a true optimist, i will continue fighting, considering it as a call of duty, n that also without screeching and pouting. I know i will get lost, drifted, distraited, forgotten, fallen, exhausted, so what.... i will resume my stance, and complete the task with panache and in style . :)
Tig Tag Tog
Its a long time, since i have written anything for my blog, so breaking the ice out here by tagging myself -:)
Pick out a scar you have, and explain how you got it
ahhh ... lem me find it out .. on the right side of chin (bt tht not so visible), got while fighting with ma cousin, who ws not ready to give chweet, small umbrealla ...
What does your phone look like?
manly, handy n on most kwl, thts my moto razr is all about. Black color makes it on top.
What is on the walls of your bedroom?
Nothing.. inshort i hate messing up walls of my bedroom unless its a something of utter importance. But i would love to keep picture of ma family near to my bed.
What is your current desktop picture?
Autum wallpaper provided by microsoft, i don like putting images of hot babes n nything sort of on my official workstation.
Do you believe in gay marriage?
*&^%$##%$$% ..... nOoooOoooooOo
What do you want more than anything right now?
at present, i want jacket or sweater as this office's AC will get me kill someday, seriouly m feeling cold, imagine how much cold it will b outside.
Are your parents still together?
Yeah ... very much ..
Last person who made you cry?
Is this necessary to take name of someone, who holds no imprtance in ur life
nymore.
What is your favorite perfume/cologne?
None.. as i beleive in trying out all sorts of perfume/cologne. i even don mind putting some feminine perfume.. wht matter most is that, i should like ...
What are you listening to?
ajab si .. frm OSO .. kk has sung this really well ...
Do you get scared of the dark?
U might be kidding ... yeah i agree, there were time whn i used to get scared by dark, but this is something what u master with each passing time .... bit philosphical na ... i know
Do you like pain killers?
Noooooooooooooo ... i hate taking pain killers unless there is no option left .....
If you could eat anything right now, what would it be?
Rather thn eating, i would like to have a ginger tea, with bit of lemon on it .
Who was the last person who made you mad?
i don remember, is there any one .. i don think so .
Who was the last person who made you smile?
emmmm ... i think some one whom i call "amma"... heyy look .. u make me smile, don u think m giving you some importance in ma life ....
Is someone in love with you or u in love of someone?
nahiiiiiiiiii sayad haaaaaaaaaaaaa .. nahiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
Three Things in my life I can never let go of
my ethics
my will power
my family n frnd
List 5 things that you want to say to people but never will. Don't say who they are.
I am in love with you.
Sometim you sucks ....
You r my sweetheart.
Am the best, don care for the rest.
Get this n get this straight..i NEED not tell you every single detail of my life
Five Things I'd Love To Do Before I Die
Go on a world tour alone
Bunzee jumping
Daru pii ke full talli honaaa. (i will really do one day ...)
To drive lexus
Five Things I Will Not Do Even If It Kills me
i don know .. let the time come.. i will tell you guys.
Two Things I Do When I'm Away From The Public
%$#%&@*~?e
Day dreaming
Five Fav Sentences/Quotes
Kya fark padta haii ...
rehne dee .. tera kuch nahi ho saktaa
Shhtttt
crap
chal hutt ... hawa aane dee ...
Five Things I'll Make You Wish You Didnt Do, If You Did
Asking for singing, acting or anything like that ...
Don't ask for money.. m a big broke.
chasing girl.
Asking for my personal stuff ..
Making me wait ...
This One is all about me.
This one is all about me .
July 11 was ma Birthday. And I completed 23. So to celebrate myself, here are 23 things you may or may not know about me.
1. I'm the youngest of 3 kids- 2 Brother , 1 sister.
2. Most of my birthdays growing up were spent at home. I remember one year we were in nani ma's house for my birthday. I thought It was so cool
3. I love reading, bt never managed 2 read more thn three books :( till now rather thn academics.
4. I love dadi ma most among all. she is darling of mine and will always love me irrespective of whatever i do. Dadi maa .. "I Love You.. " She is the one who brought me more thn ma mom as she ws not well for the first 5 yr.
5. I grew up in Bihar, so typically bihari ba heart . :)))
6. Ma eternal desire is to go on world tour, njoying food n chicks all over the world ... :))))
7. Basically, I just love music in general. There is nothing that i say .. ki i don like. These days.. Summer of 69 is ma favourite.
8. I am die hard fan of Sourav Ganguly, if some one talk ill abt him, i feel like giving him a punch on his nose, bt cnt.. dada, u carry on with ur good work for india.
9. I havent been on date yet. :(
10. Totally virgin. :)
11. I love TV. Infact, i got spec just beacause of tv viewing, i guess. I love watching cricket,talk show (meaning ful wale ..), informative serials, n many more ...
12. Sometimes I wish I were born in a rich family, where u had everything that u desire. Thn also, m lucky enough to have father like ma dad.
13. I was the house captain in the school.
14. When i was younger, i wanted to grow up either defence personnel or a Cricketer.
15. I’m a shy boy at heart. Only these last few years have I shed a lot of my shyness, thn also a lot of things to b done. I’m still quiet, though.
16. My first job was at lall's Copper, in Delhi where i ws more of a operator.. computer operator. Although i learned a lot, not technically but practically abt the life and the people.
17. I really like to cook. I’m not so keen on cooking different dishes, but more of usual stuff.
18. I’m not very tidy. I’m definitely not a neat freak, but I’m not super messy. Monday morning.. u will hav everything on the block, bt at the end of week, u will hv block of everything.
19. Preity was ma first crush, Honey was ma first love, ayesha is ma latest mush.
20. m a terrible dancer and on top, a horrible singer. (u remember ajay devgan in hum dil de chuke sanam)
21. During CDAC days, Dhiraj bhai was great help 2 me, inshort " Mentor ". Man, u helped me a lot, n i know u will not accept it, bt actually u did.
22. I did ma graduation from delhi, so all the gr8 memory (infact a lot ..) remains there. I hope to return one day. It’s the most beautiful place in the world.
23. Thinking of buying bike for me, somewhere around November. Black Bajaj Pulsar 150 DTSI. Hope till then will get some gorgeous lady to sit with me …. ha ha ha ha he he he ho ho ho …
Uff .. I thought it would b easy writing, bt it was hard 2 find something 23 point about urself.
